With an update of my life....

This morning on the way to work, i drove my NEW car into the back of someone else's car. They stopped. For whatever reason, only known to my brain,  I didn't. The woman got out of her car and inspected the damage while I hung out of my car saying I'm so sorry I'm so sorry....She said there was no apparent damage to her car though and didn't take my details.

Being me, and with my issues with denial, I then drove to work, parked and came in to the office. I haven't looked at the damage yet...I daren't. Maybe I will tonight.

Anyway, relationships...do you think that at certain points in your life you are 'ready' for a serious relationship, and at other times you aren't, or do you think it either does or doesn't just happen irrespective of timing? Thats probably not very clear. I sort of got annoyed the other day because he had not felt the need to speak to me at all over the weekend, which I thought was a bit..well not nice I guess.

I was then really upset because after I presented him with this and he said that 'he did not want to get involved in anything serious and it was his way of dealing with it'  Which is nice isn't it. Anyway, after some discussion as he didn't understand why this would upset me (????) he says what he actually meant was 'he had not wanted to want anything serious'...and that he had not expected me to still be around. (apparently I was supposed to take this as a compliment).

So whaddya think?

This morning I was standing in the rain, for 40 MINUTES waiting for the letting agents to open so I could get them to let me into my flat.

I then had to get A BUS.

I was 2 hours late for work.

I had left my keys at work yesterday. Not sensible really.

I failed my exam last week.

I needed 55 to pass and I got 54. I'm an idiot because I could have got extenuating circumstances had I actually thought abut it in time. Still never mind that, the point is this fail actually bars me from the qualification I am/was doing.

I knew this as soon as I got my results through but work don't. They think I have another resit attempt. But I don't and I obviously should have told someone at the time but now its 10 days later and I still haven't.

I have had 3 emails from HR which I have ignored, asking me whether I want to do it in Dec or March next year. And now she has just come to ask me to let her know by the end of the day, as she needs to get the form in the post.

I want to tell her, I need to get it over with. If I am going to be sacked I do need to know but I literally cannot get the words out. " actally I can't do it December OR march...or ever...".

How do I start?

I'm feeling much better now...

Spent (well, myself and the bank) a few thousand pounds this weekend which is always a good cheering up activity.

Things I bought:

- Shoes

- Beer from covent garden. ( I would be more precise but I have no idea)

- Beer from Doncaster

- New car from Doncaster.

....as you do. Got to go pick it up this weekend which is a bit annoying but still. New car!! It's blue.

Not sure what I am going to do with the red one, which I didnt part ex as I didnt have it with me at the time. This now seems a bit silly.

I have a joke.

A man gets in to a cab in London...

- Waterloo please.

- You mean the station?

- Well, I'm a bit late for the battle.

And another one..

What do you call a man with no shins?

Tony.

Em.

http://www.waxhoff.com/

Enjoy.

I'm a bit bored and too busy so I thought I'd write something.

Only I've been thinking desparately of something positive to say for about ten minutes now and I can't.

In fact the only things I can think of are negative....but I am so bored of myself lately I refuse to write them.

Actually, I lie, there is one good thing, but I don't have much to say about that either.

Help me...tell me something funny, please....

I'll give you all my sweeties....