What exactly is the point in me being at work I wonder when I have got nothing to do? I mentioned this earlier this morning to various people and the response was a muttered…”oh ah..hmm..yes…I’m sure there is something…hmm…..I’ll speak to….” That was around 3 hours ago. Since then I have bought a saddle on ebay, generally stared at my computer screen and made myself lots of cups of tea. Soon I may go to the shop to buy myself a drink as this will take longer. I hate having nothing to do. Yet still, for some reason, maintaining the pretence of working by having a file open in front of me and the relevant software on my screen. This is why I hated my last, last job. I just spend all day looking at the time, which seems to tick backwards.
I was even supposed to be going on a job in Leeds next week, which would have been great because its home, but also actually doing something, but now for some reason I’m not, which seems crazy and there is no reason behind it. I mean, its not like I have done anything wrong. Though what I am doing is not going to be particularly great since I am SO bored.
The last job was the complete opposite, always manically busy, and lots more pressure (mind you some would be more here) but I enjoyed it more in a kind of permanently stressed way.
It’s been a bit like this since I started here, and it just saps any motivation I might have. I am thinking about applying for another job but am not sure that it looks very good to leave after only 2 months. Im having a bit of a hamster in his wheel day I think. Feel like I will never get anywhere, and am just running around in perpetually decreasing circles.
In other slightly more inspiring news, I went to Leeds festival at the weekend (no of course I didn’t camp) which was much fun. Ah yes and a lot of my background appears to be in German, and the links are mostly linking to nowhere. Try to ignore this I shall sort it out….some day….
Oh, and its my birthday in 32 days!
Episode III: Return of the Mid
